I posted a release date for my book with no idea how it could be

Just to give you some background, God told me that I would write a book for His glory when I was 16. At that time is was so unfathomable for me to believe. I was a hot mess and a half. As I could barely digest that I would be called to such a task, I kept that secret to myself for a very long time. I am now convinced that if I had spilled my vision to the wrong ear, or dream killer, it may not have lived through some very grueling seasons. I talk about this, overcoming insecurity, healing and birthing your blessing or purpose a lot within my new book. However, there is one part that I recently had to live out which wasn’t added.

I placed a public release date on my book with no idea how it would be. You see, the book was written, it was in my editor’s line-up, but there were still so many steps that had to be completed. This included the multiple re-visits in edits (because one or two is never enough), the formatting, the finances it took,  the marketing plan, re-doing my cover, creating accounts, legal aspects, setting it up for selling houses including Amazon, and let’s NOT forget the spiritual warfare and LIFE that goes on in the background of this.

I’ve sat with this 'baby' inside of me for so long. There were points I felt crippled and couldn’t think about anything else. I just wanted to deliver. But I couldn’t do it pre-maturely. Then, any time I would catch a ‘groove’ or rhythm, another attack would just about wipe your girl out. Hey, all I can be is honest.

God told me to release it in July, with it just a few weeks away. Bruh, forreal? Lol July has always been such a tough month for me personally. It always reminds me on the passing of someone I loved dearly. But then, I was encouraged by this verse

You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy (Psalm 30:11). 

He told me, like I believe he wants me to tell you, that He will turn all your tears of pain into tears of joy.  

 So, I jumped. I jumped with no idea how I would get all the work done by when He told me to release and handle all my daily responsibilities including a full-time job, no idea if I would have the financial stance to invest the way I needed to and all the plethora of other things I mentioned, plus some.

But guess what? In that act of obedience in total faith, I have seen God blow my mind! He made every single detail come to pass. He gave me the fortitude to push through regardless of the noise around me or my feelings. He gave me the patience to literally knock out one thing at a time without jumping ahead to worry about all the remaining steps. He opened doors for speaking engagements and blessings I didn’t even ask for. He gave me an over-flow to be able to not just invest in what I’m doing, but to deposit into the purpose of others. HE DID THAT.

And all I had to do was jump. Trust that He would come through when He said He would. SO I’m going ask you this…and I want you to be very honest.

Where have you been neglecting opportunities to jump out in faith?

Where have you been holding yourself back?

Where can you afford to let go of your comfort a little more?

You see, when I took a leap of faith I also took the chance of failing. I took the change of not coming through. I took the chance of public humiliation. But at the end of the day who cares? These are the questions I now plan to consistently ask myself before I jump. ‘Are you more concerned with the One who created you or are you more concerned with the life you create for yourself?’ Because I’ve learned that the life and purpose He created within us and for us cannot compare to the one WE try to re-create. 

God certainly makes the very best stories…if we stop snatching that dang pen.

My Mission Manifested 

My First Published Book

I've published my very first book! This is such a long time coming. A 'baby' that was birthed inside of me when I was 16 years old and had no idea how or when it would come to pass. I cannot say that that birthing my book has been easy. Although I didn't start writing it until a few years ago, there were so many times I wanted to give up. I realized that very obstacle within the journey only made the chapters more full. 

Gorgeous Inside the book is a journey from dealing to healing that confronts a woman’s shell and breaks through the very substance of her core. Paloma Freeman shares her testimony of abuse, misuse, a forward road to developing a relationship with God, and walking out her true purpose. This book is naked--raw and transparent, a composition for women from all walks of life.

Do you struggle overcoming and letting go severs of your past?

Have you lost faith?

Are you ready to view at your situation with brand new spiritual eyes?

Are you prepared to confront anything that’s ever held you back?

Can we push together?

Will you be really brave and join me in this journey?

Darling, you’re so worth it.

Ascertain what it looks like to be utterly naked with all of your clothes on. Learn what it feels like to look beyond your reflection in the mirror or the rearview of your past and discover what it truly means to be gorgeous inside.

 Order your copy HERE

Also, be sure to check out my new website wearegorgeousinside.com 

Welcome to my new blog! Starting a new blog has been on my spirit for quite some time. But like many of us, I always rationalized some excuse of needed perfection. You know. The perfection that will never be but we often wait for. 'I have to get the perfect template,' I thought. 'I have to wait until my next project comes out,' I doubted. Then God gave me the clearest picture of what I'm supposed to do. Get rid of any fluff (comfort) and just jump.

My last couple of weeks have been full of faith jumps. There is immense fruit in 'right now' obedience. I've learned what it's like to walk blindly in faith. I've always known the verse, I just lacked application. On the other side of obedience it's exhilarating, mind-blowing, and breezy. I can best describe it when I went sky diving.

When you jump out of the plane in the sky there's a few seconds that you cannot calculate how fast you're going. It's fun, but for a split second you think 'oh. my. God." But then the Instructor (let's just say it's God for analogy sake), pulls the parachute and there's this cruise control speed mid air as you safely make your way down the overtaking beauty of all that surrounds. Peace, yo. Peace. That's on the other side of obedience; if only we jump out of the plane and are willing to withstand a few seconds of seemingly forever 'free-falling'.

Back to the Basics. Paloma's Pen. A place of transparency and unrelenting faith. Thank you for joining as I attempt to show myself naked with all of my clothes on so that God's glory can be revealed.